17 Jan 2024 - It's been a long time since I posted anything here - and also a long time since I wrote any poetry. At one stage I was writing 1 -2 poems a week. But as my poems are emotion driven, the fact that I have been "lifeless" for the past while probably explains that. I did keep a weekly diary of visits to my granddaughter for the first two years, but have stopped that now, and although I started one for my grandson, it hasn't really developed. And now with a 3rd grandchild on the way, I don't know....
Depression is still lingering in the background. I'm probably never going to get away from it completely, but am able to recognize, and to a certain extent, manage it.
Goin to see a Urologist tomorrow. Same doc who removed my kidney in 1996! This time however, it's not going to be that easy. I saw a DR. 2 weeks ago, and after doing some blood tests, he said I have 1st stage kidney failure! And as I only have one, this is a cause for concern! So, tomorrow afternoon we will know what's what with that!
Don't get me wrong, I'm not scared of death - I don't want to be put into a situation where I am fully dependent on my children, and having to have dialysis and such. I'm hoping it's fixable, or manageable with a good diet and some meds. As yet, I have not said anything to my boys. I'll talk to them after I know what's wrong. No need for them to stress until we know more.
That's if for now. Chat again tomorrow.
