April 22, 2025 - Another day in paradise

So here we are. Tuesday morning, at the office. I know, I should be working, well, I'm the manager here, and at the moment we not too busy, I have made sure all is well in the factory, so can take 5 minutes to start this post.

I posted a blog directed at a very good friend (brother), and he replied on his blog. Interesting how that's working.. Suffice to say, we know each other too well.

I can't wait till I can get down there to spend a few days together. He's a good man, gives great advice, listens to hear and not just respond.... Not too many people like him around - well, not in my life anyway.

So, this coming weekend, my nephew (in-law, read ex's sister son) is getting married, It's his second. I was on the invite list - one of only 70 people, but alas, I had to decline. And I'm quite pissed about it. You see, the ex will obviously be there, probably with her ??, and his parents. Since our divorce, I have had no communication with the ex family, other than when my mom-in-law died, and then as little as possible. 

Also, even though I made a point of being the better person after the divorce with regards how I treated my ex, that has now come to an end. On the basis that she is enabling my son with regards his decision to divorce his wife, I can no longer, in good faith, be that guy. So I am making a point of avoiding her as much as possible.

What pisses me off is that I am now missing out on events which include family and friends. I know, it's my decision, but made on the back of my self respect, and not wanting to condone the actions of others. If you are seen to be in acceptance of their actions, it reflects on you as well!

So, apart from the fact that I was sick, I didn't get to spend Good |Friday, or Easter Sunday with my family. Had we been a normal family, my illness would not have ben an issue. We would have go together, and celebrated, minding that I don't infect the little ones. Well that didn't happen. Had we been a normal family, I would be flying down to the Cape this week to attend the wedding.

What's even more annoying, and again, probably due to decisions and / or choices I have made, is that their lives are going on as normal. This is their new normal. But it's not normal, not in my eyes.

And this bring to the fore another issue. I know my boys care for me, and look out for me. More so my biking wingman - he has much of my personality, so caring for those close to you comes naturally. However, of late I have been feeling bad about stuff, mostly because I don't want him to feel like I am now his responsibility. He has his own life, and shouldn't have to worry about his dad, make sure I feel included, looked after, etc.

I'm not saying that his actions are because he feels responsible to look out for me - I just don't want it to be that. Does this makes sense? It does in my head. I really appreciate him, and what he does for me.

Enough for now..... Not sure where I was going with this post, other than to record my feelings and thoughts.

On the basis that I probably only have one reader, who I am very comfortable to share my stuff with, I'm okay with publishing it here.

Be safe out there.